That Silver Lining

Summer with my friends means lighting the nights on fire.

We have a fire pit and once the drinks have been served, we like to scavenge the area around my apartment for anything flammable (hopefully non toxic) and light it up.
And I mean anything. A few weeks ago things escalated to the point of ripping spindles off my deck to burn…But it’s cool because we thoughtfully ripped out every other one so no one would notice….

There is something about summer nights around a fire pit that make you feel solid and content; especially when you start to get high off of the lighter fluid your best friend just threw into the flames. 
The last fire my friends and I had, we went through The Jar of Negative Energy.
The Jar of Negative Energy (JNE) was an idea that my best friend Kate and I concocted after emptying a bottle of Skull Vodka into our stomachs…
Life had been a bit brutal the previous weeks; my little brother had just gone off to boot-camp, I had come to Katherine’s apartment one day to find the boy I was seeing in his bedroom with another girl, I was one-night-stand-ed. . . etc.
In short, I was very fucking miserable. 
Kate was also going through her own issues in life, and we began to realize that these problems were starting become a fixture of our lives.

Every time I’m drunk I can be quoted saying, “It’s a damn shame you can’t shower your soul”.
We decided to do a soul cleanse and the JNE was the closest thing to showering our eternal spirit we could find.
Every time something made us mad, ruined our day, rained on our parade; we would write it on a slip of paper and put it into the JNE which was an empty Skull Vodka bottle.
The bottle choice is significant in many ways, but I’ll spare you all the symbolism…

Finally, when the jar had reached its capacity, my friends and I gathered around the fire pit and we read each piece of paper out loud and then tossed it into the flames thus releasing the negative energy from our lives. 
Once the jar was empty I felt a sense of closure for several stupid things I had been focused on, but I also realized how much negativity was in my life.

I stress about stupid things I cannot change, I let inconsiderate people ruin my day, I let certain people take advantage of me and then fixate on how miserable I am, and I allow myself to be angry far to often.

The JNE was a good way to release my petty irritations, but I saw that I never celebrated all the good things in my life.  
Kate had the brilliant idea of adding a Jar of Positive Energy (JPE), so that for all the bad energy we release from our lives we can celebrate the good energy. 
Her suggestion also made me aware that for every bad event in my life, if I look hard enough, something good (albeit very small at times), has come from it.
My brother going to boot-camp helped me reconnect with my entire family, being used for eight months helped me reevaluate my self esteem and being used for one night forced me to be conscious of how I treat others.
Ancient philosophers and physicists figured it out years ago; for every push in the universe to the left, there’s an equal push to the right.

Why unhappy things occur or why lessons have to be learned the hard way, I am not sure you ever know; but I promise rarely do things in life happen in vain.

The best natural fertilizer is shit; therefore the more of it you trudge through in life, the stronger you will eventually become. 


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